CH. 10(a) response

Upon reading the end of CH. 10, i see that saidu's death came not from phsyical means, but mental. by completely giving up, he , well simply gave up on the hope of living, and that's why Ishmael has made it this far. he made it this far by not giving up and finding a hope/determintion. Ofcourse we found out why saidu has given up since he heard his family taken and sisters raped three times. I do not know what i would do under those circumstances personaly, and i really hope that never happens to my family. If any of my parents or brother or sister where being killed/raped/stolen, I would plan to rather die trying to fend for them than to simply hide, hear the worst things you could hear, and simply run away. I know those are hardcore killers that think cutting off someone's fingers is fun, but at that point if what was happening was going on, i would not care if i was killed, though i might not want to get tortured, if it meant saving my family, heck yeah. I really had a strong reaction to this (here it comes, the classic i am disturbed) but really i feel this is worse than seeing the all the gore and violence in the world in one square mile, having to hear my closest people in harm and in internal agony, that i think would be worse than death or being tortured. but again, I do not know what i would excactly do, but what ever i did i would do with calm and clarity if i could